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I was a whore who lost the feeling
You were a whore who lost the feeling
of touch.
I was a good man, so let me in.
I wasn't forgiven when I did sin.
There was a problem: I offended the Lord
Then I was thrown below the heaven’s floor
Because I was a whore who lost the feeling
You were a whore who lost the feeling of touch.
Hell is a place where you forever burn
Wages are not fair,
yet one still may earn.
A dollar—a day,
and there was nothing more.
But, a million days—
a million dollars in store
Because I was a whore who lost the feeling
You were a whore who lost the feeling of touch.
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I say surprise
We’re cutting the ties
Like syrup from the sap of trees
I declare, this doesn’t make sense to me.
Can’t understand it.
Oh, it’s a magical journey now
We take the best parts of a cow
And we pickle them so they don’t sour
Then we devour.
Sweetness gathers flies
Snakes don’t blink their eyes
We do the opposite when we sleep
I declare this doesn’t make sense to me
Can’t understand it.
Oh it’s a magical flavour to taste
We take the best parts of this race
We tickle them until us they then face
Then we replace.
Can’t understand it
These remnants of reinvention.
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18 and I have a bedtime
How does that make you feel?
The tip of my foreskin
Reading medical textbooks
As he guts fish.
How does that make you feel?
They told me so
I really have no problem lying to you
My actions and my conscience
Are best of friends, pleased to meet you
The smell of propane makes me nauseous
I don’t think you love me as much as you say
You do
And I hate the laughter of children
Having another…..ahhhhh
Another mental…..ahhhhh
Another mental……ahhhhh
Another mental……ahhhhh
I’m not afraid of anything because
the Lord is my guide
I know the smell of Cancer, and I know
the things that you hide
I’m not afraid of anything
cause I know the Lord is my guide
A savage eyeball in my pocket
Give the world an orgasm
And it’ll take over itself
Killer bees in my shredded wheat
I had
Having another mental seizure
Mental seizure
Having another mental seizure
Having another mental seizure
Mental seizure
18…
18 and I have a bedtime
I have a bedtime.
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Came down at once took all his aggression out
Reason behind: I needed a lesson now
Here let me help you
No thanks, I think I’ll take the liberty
You know how he loves a good surprise
No, I’m not afraid to fight them
Instead I’ll run and in turn delight them
Can you feel your face?
I can’t feel mine
Don’t talk to me about all your pleasure
(I won’t)
Compare everyone to see how I measure
Wasn’t it great having him back
At least if not for a little while?
Sorry time to go now
Say good-bye
(I won’t)
No, I’m not afraid to fight them
Instead I’ll run and in turn delight them
I can’t feel mine, I never came near mine
I never knew him except through story
His shining attributes were love and glory
His colour blindness now
Prevented him from witnessing
His love always was two-toned
In my eyes
No, I’m not afraid to fight them
Instead I’ll run and in turn delight them
I smell chlorine
We’re always clean
It’s all the chlorine
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Today, forget what you heard
All of their efforts are just colourful birds
And spare me, your intricate lives
Those catchy details are the substance of lies
Let me contain all my joy
Your optimism is a delicate ploy
And let me be sorry to say
Your arrogance is gonna kill you someday
We’re over the hill
But we’re taking our pills
Our strength is our wills
And we’re ready to kill
Let me follow the line
A fresh idea’s such an uncommon find
And shaming is what you deserve
Our maturation’s such a sensitive nerve
We’re over the hill
But we cannot sit still
Our strength is our wills
And we’re ready to kill
Let me be first to relay
We’ll never hear a single word that you say
Waiting in silence abound
Until we hear the final victory sound
We’re over the hill
But we cannot sit still
And we know what to do
So we’re coming for you
We’re coming for you
We’re coming for you.
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I like sex and you like sex
They like sex and he likes sex
So we all like sex
At least to that we can attest
I’m not bad and you’re not bad
He’s not bad and she’s not bad
So we’re all not bad
You were the best that I ever had
And what I want is nothing more than
What you can give. And I mean that.
And how I act is because I think less
Is that what the general consensus is
We’ll get more than we bargained for
That’s for sure
I like fun and you like fun
They like fun and she likes fun
So we all like fun
Just wake me when I am done
I’m not scared and you’re not scared
He’s not scared and they’re not scared
So we all are not scared
We all are not scared
I need help and you need help
They need help and she needs help
So we all need help
I hope it doesn’t depend on wealth
And my good looks will purchase
more than what I can buy. And I mean that
And how I feel I’m numb and that’s
because I think less
I feel fine and you feel fine
She feels fine and they feel fine
So we all feel fine
I only took what was mine
I like sex and you like sex
They like sex and he likes sex
So we all like sex
Is that the general consensus?
I’m not scared and you’re not scared
He’s not scared and they’re not scared
So we all are not scared
We all are not scared
I won’t laugh and you won’t laugh
He will laugh and they will laugh
So we all will laugh
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It's all behind me now.
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I’m allowed
I’m allowed
Tell me why’d you do it
Why’d you fucking do it
I’m allowed
I’m allowed
Tell me why’d you do it
Why’d you go and do it
I’m allowed
I’m allowed
I’m the good one
You’re the bad one
I’m the good one
Why’d you do it
Why’d you go and do it
I’m allowed
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I hope I’ll relieve your headache
By getting rid of this nest-egg
It will be painless
But don’t worry I’m on this one
Got a handle on this one
I never will see your children
I’m sure they’d look just like you and me
Except they would be laughing
I’m on this one I’m on this one
I’m sorry the guy with two last names
Expired before he knew yours
I’ve been there myself before
My imagination makes me weep
I’ll try to stifle it next week
I’m on this one
All my ideas were not mine
Kiss these sore lips one last time
But not if you mean it
I always feel apprehensive
Your eyes lift up when you see my face
But I’m not smiling at you
It’s just that you remind me of someone
Maybe you remind me of someone
You remind me of someone
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Hey Mr. Whiteperson
The air is cold in the autumn
Long lost days that haunt them
Such a clichesque thing to say
I see burning leaves
It happens every year
And it’s bad for the environment
But I don’t care
Because I like the smell
Don’t question me
Only believe in me first
Don’t go to an outside source
Believe what I say to you
You’re lucky enough that I share it with you anyway
Switch places with me
Because I’ll gladly let you win
I don’t care enough
I’m a sell-out
Am I right
Am I right
And you can take away my voice
And rip my words up
I don’t care now
And you can take away my person
But you can never
Never erase my memory
Never erase my memory
Never erase my memory
Never erase my memory
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You take them in and you spit them out
You use this for power
You got them wrapped around your little finger
You’re so ignorant you don’t even know what you’re doing
You used me, you lost me
You fucked him, and that’s it
And that’s it
You didn’t even take your shirt off
I know things
I know your deepest darkest secret
I’m only as far away as your T.V. set
I love it in hell, I’m happy
The smell of old
Acquiesce what we know
I don’t really have a place to go
I’m so happy
I’m on the outside
I don’t really condone suicide
I know what you try to hide
I gave you strength
You treat
You line them up and you take them in
And you spit them out
Kill your idols before they kill you
I don’t know what to do
I’m so happy
I’m on the outside
I don’t really condone suicide
I’m not laughing only on the outside
I can hardly believe that I cried
Kill your idols before they only disappoint you
As these waves of hatred fall over me
And all I want to do is scream
I got out and ran
Get out while you still can
I know what it’s like
I’ve been there before
It’s ignorant and stupid and they’ll sap you for more
I know what it’s like
I used to be you but thank God I’m not
I’m so happy
I’m on the outside
I don’t really condone suicide
I’m not happy
Used to be you
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I want to tell you
My feelings
My emotions
My life
My hurting
My learning
My deserving
But you tell me
That you don’t believe me
And you can’t see me
I guess it’s time to start pretending
Start pretending
Oh hideaway
Every one that’s important likes me now that I’m famous
All I want to say
Is where were you before
Where the fuck were you
When I was nothing more
Oh Hideaway
Oh Rightaway
What it is you need
You take away my symmetry
You take away my life
You make me die
Don’t stop pretending that I love you
I love you
It’s a bad day
Cry me a river
It’s a sad day
Cry me a river
It’s a bad day
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I have a question
Can you sew me a sweater
This one has always been too tight
Hung on these needles being perpendicular
Resembles the spine of a kite
Alright
I have a question
Can you sew me a sweater
This one has always fit wrong
But if two of these needles make it plural not singular
It’s a wonder that you are alone
I wanted this one to be something better
I wanted this one to be something greater
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The trouble with love
Is how it gets inside you
And you forget why you fought
All the lonely, all the sad
Feelings mistook as flaws
I’m sorry, which was the better?
She knows
All is fine
And what is mine is mine
I try to live up to these expectations
I try to regress from the separation
But it’s never enough
You play the extra part in everything I do
The summer
Makes me feel I’m beside you
When did this happen?
It’s not my fault
Are you losing control?
But we never go anywhere
I’d like to pick you up
But you’re doing housework
She knows
All is fine
And what is mine is mine
(the world is ours, let’s get carried away)
And I try not to think about it
And maybe for five minutes
You can pretend that everything is all right
And everything is normal
Apple pie happy sunshine day
Apple pie happy sunshine day
And I try not to think about it
And maybe for five minutes
You can pretend that everything is all right
And you had a life before this
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The winter wormed its way into autumn
The winter has now officially worn out its welcome
I hear them calling my name off down in the distance
My absence denotes how they probably miss me
But I’m glad I ran
Far from them
Far from that
And their ignorance
This is how we were rewarded
Through all the things we found important
The literature penned in accordance
to God’s design
Up to and including these last three decades
The interest in building model airplanes
Has markedly diminished
It’s as though it never existed.
So suspicious of flight
I’m so suspicious of flight.
So I’m glad I ran
Far from them
Far from that
And their ignorance
And I’m sorry that
Did not turn out as planned
So I’m glad I ran
From their ignorance
Hard to believe that youth is over
My year of discarded memory approaches
So everyday I’m writing out my possessions
A list of all the things that I’ve resolved
How to guard this all?
How to guard this all?
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If you want something to last
Then tattoo it across your chest
I’m not about to drink potash
Cause I’m like that
If you want some bone marrow
From a scarecrow
I’m not about get a hangnail
From my fanmail
If you now feel Bulimic
Then you should diet
I’m not above feeling happy for awhile
I’m not above filling your gracious smile
Full of a plaster cast
Hung on my mantle it’s best
displayed so I know its mine
If you want something to last
Then drill it in my head
Who would dare smear shoe polish
Doctor’s office
I’m not about to drink potash
Cause I’m like that
If I’m wanted in Europe
By my stirrups
I don’t want to spill stale
Ginger Ale
I’m not above feeling happy for awhile
I’m not above filling your gracious smile
Full of a plaster cast
Hung on my mantle it’s best
Displayed so I know it’s fresh
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Cause I’ve got sex appeal And I am a ‘nice guy’
And if I am not catching up It’s because I did not try
And if it’s not fair Believe me that I’m not scared
I’m not about that Cause I am a ‘nice guy’
Cause I’ve got
And I am a ‘nice guy’ And if it’s not fair
Believe me that I’m not scared It’s because I did not try
(I’m not about that)
And if I fall down left behind in the fairgrounds
that I am not scared by Cause I am a ‘nice guy’
I’m not about that
I’ve got sex appeal And I am a ‘nice guy’
And if I am not scared by It’s because I did not try
And if you obey my voice This is my choice
I’m not about that
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Everyone knows what blame feels like
When it’s their fault indeed
Everyone knows what tears taste like
They taste like salt, you see.
And it’s your last name first
And your first name last
On this list alphabetically
And it’s your future first
With your curse told last
Drawn from this palm I read
Everyone knows what sky looks like
It seems like hope to me
And everyone knows what love smells like
It smells like soap to me.
And it’s your sadness first
with your mirth shown last
In this life collectively
But the sun is first
With the earth third cast
In this wide cosmology
Everyone knows what love feels like
It feels like jealousy
And everyone knows what the sky looks like
It seems like home to me.
Everyone knows what birds sound like.
They breathe out melody
Everyone knows what words feel like
But that depends on memory
And it’s your last name first
And your first name last
On this list alphabetically
But the dirt’s flung first
With the flowers last
On this grave right next to me.
Everyone knows what praise feels like
It feels quite false to me
And everyone knows what blood tastes like.
It tastes like salt you see.
No middle initial.
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Writing out reports
I’m in a T-shirt and shorts
But I’ve worked, I’ve worked them all
I’ve worked them all now
Hand supporting my hair
Leaning forward in my chair
And I’m first, I’ve firsted them all
But I’ve never gloated
I say hey why must we delay
When I’m ready and loaded?
Well all the martyrs, they came to town
Rupert Brooke and John Brown
Speaking wild, wild tales of
steady explosions.
And it’s a sad state of affairs
Repeat the past but no one cares
Pushing loud, louder failure
Ready and loaded
I say hey where’s my keychain?
It was already corroded.
All the martyrs, they came to town
And they wanted to party down
Because death’s only a state
for the highly devoted
So we grabbed Samuel Morse
And we set him down on a great big horse
And said the secret of life
Must be firmly decoded.
He replied ‘sorry my child,
it was already corroded.’
He replied ‘sorry my child,
It was already corroded.’
I say hey where’s my keychain? No, no. Oh no.
I say hey where’s my cliché? No, no. Oh no.
I say hey where’s my keepsake? No, no.
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I
Befriended you. We are friends
We Are friends
I
Forgave you before I forgave you
Why
Do you interfere with my life
Why do you interfere
Why do you now waste my time
Why do you waste my…..
I let you in. I let you win.
Ah
But now you take up my time
My time is limitless
Why do you cuddle me Then cast me away
Why is this your way I don’t understand your way
I don’t understand Solve your own problems
After all they are your own
Problems I worked for what I have
And with your smile
And reputation You Proceed to take it away
Take it away Take it away
And you didn’t even thank me
Thank me
Sympathy Too much pity in me
Blood is thicker than water
I’ve closed up for good
The wound My wound
Is healed just like it should
Just like it….didn’t even thank me
Sympathy
I’ll let you I’ll let you drown
I will let you down I’ll get you down
Blood is thicker than water
Go fuck yourself
People never change
Sympathy
Never
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She broke through the atmosphere
that no one knows about
She wrote my autobiography
without my help
She spoke all the instructions
with proof I'll have no doubt
She don’t give a second glance
that know one knows about
Ah what we want is what we can't deny
What we want is how we feel inside
To complement the absence in our lives
You pretend but still I can't
She hopes for a holiday
to rest her weary frame
And though he provides everything
it’s never quite the same
Well, I don’t know how to swim
so I'll never cross this moat
She said to avoid the water’s
like cutting your own throat
Breathe through your mouth
Drink to your health
Ah what we want is what we can't deny
What we want is how we feel inside
Burn the bridges, cutting all the ties
To complement the absence in our lives
You accept but still I can't
Maybe I should retire
Maybe then I’d acquire
All these worldly desires
Maybe I should retire
Ah what we want is what we can't deny
What we want is how we feel inside
Ten commandments, you just obey five
This contract binds us even when we die
Ah what we want is what we can't deny
What we want is how we feel inside
All that you know's cutting your own throat
You accept but still I can't
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Hello, it’s me; it’s your best friend.
I have something to send to you.
It’s warm; it’s here on your best day
Not unlike your birthday, too soon.
Go on open it up early.
It’s yours for eternity
You deserve much more than you get
I hope that this is not inadequate
I thought this was gentle, much less detrimental than a holler.
And I, spend all my time forsaken to pine.
They all know: you’re wearing my clothes;
I carry your picture in my wallet.
Go on have all the joy you can muster
Your eyes will never lose luster
You’re bright like a radiant star
And I wish on you from afar.
Go on wake me up so early.
I’m yours for eternity.
You’re my bright radiant star
And I never want to depart.
I thought this was special, much less detrimental than a promise
And we shall travel through time, our lives intertwined
Only to hide in the sea, the water will be the perfect cover
I love you for all that you are, you’re my radiant star and there’s no other.
Go on. Tomorrow is not so early.
I’m yours for eternity
You shine like a radiant star
And I never want to depart.
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You’re so happy
Fell accidentally
One incidentally
You’re so happy
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I was told this was tragic
We were both left in Alcatraz
Leave your possessions now
Something has terribly gone wrong
Something putrid is leaking out
Something has inherently gone wrong.
I was told this was magic
We were both left in Alcatraz
On this 3 mile island
The only way to escape is to swim, so.
Leave your possessions now
something has horribly gone wrong
Something putrid is leaking out
Something has methodically gone wrong
Leave your possessions now
Something has apparently gone wrong
It seems to me that if nobody answers
How will we know where to lay all the blame?
It seems to me that if nobody answers
We’re going to repeat all our mistakes.
And it seems to me that if nobody transfers
How the hell will we relate? We won’t.
Oh it seems to be that if nobody answers
We’ll going to repeat all our mistakes
It seems to me that if nobody answers
How will we know who to blame?
But that’s okay…
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Indoor plumbing
I owe it to my Dad
I can’t keep up
because I don’t have enough
Money
Just get it away from me
Whatever you got
Responsible I’m not
Just get it away from me
I know
You want to leave
But it’s not up to me
At last we meet
I bit my tongue
But it’s not enough for me
I know
If you took all the time you’ve ever wasted
While waiting for something
And put it at the end of your life
You’d live forever
I know
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WE sleep. We graze.
Too deep. We are not amazed.
We are lazy, we are lazy.
We place out and out and out
We are lazy, we are lazy
We take out and out and out
Call Fat-rat-tat.
Laugh hard
We grasp despairingly
With our feeble arms
To cold scraps
IN a plastic maze
WHITE WHITE WHITE
Is the real rodent’s face
We are lazy, we are lazy.
And how much of this did we try to avoid?
We are lazy, we are lazy
And how much of this did we try to enjoy?
We are lazy, we are lazy.
We place out and out and out
We are lazy, we are lazy
We take out and out and out
Cause I’ve been around this fucking (nothing) world before
And I’m not about to scold you anymore.
This is what worry is, this is what worry is
This is what worries me.
We are lazy, we are lazy, we are...
renown.
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Let’s start the day’s events
You get a call from someone you don’t want to talk to.
A spring sticks in your side but you still rest.
The mass media means of communication
The tunnel gets darker and more narrow
Very much Machiavellian in thought
Wait your turn
Use all the hot water
She makes my meals for me
The ones I can’t eat, she will throw away.
Every so often a feeling of optimism
Another good or bad shopping trip
You get all of your books at discount prices (you know I will)
But materialism still can’t match naked flesh
I love your brain
It is so big and sautéed
and juicy.
It makes a nice dandelion head.
Clasped hands and words with false breath
Leave the extra food someone will eat the rest
With more effort soon will make a dent
And there’s always a way if you just squint
And we’ll go dancing crazy like free young men
You know I will.
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This album is presented as sequenced live demos. Imagination is needed to appreciate what the complete project could be at its full potential. Studio versions of each song will be posted as they are recorded. All information is forthcoming.
I wanted you to feel my absence
But I don’t really want to leave
Perhaps you could hide me inside
Of your sleeve
I could be your ace in the hole
Who on earth would have to know?
Your occupatio.
